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Conference Personal Notes: Day One
27.1.12 @ 10:15 AM | comment (0)


[also published in Facebook's note]

To begin the personal notes, I have to admit to you that this is my first ever international conference as an osteoarchaeologist-wannabe. I came by the opportunity to join by chance and I was already surprised on how intriguing and interesting the issues raised during the conference. I didn’t even realised it was a whole-day seminars with more than ten papers presented. I came alone as a delegation from the Southeast Asian Archipelago. The aim of participating in this conference is to test the water after a year of absence on contacts with skeletal remains.

The first papers presented were concise and had given me general outline about what is going on in the world of bioarchaeology in Southeast Asia. I must admit that I have not been updating myself with news related to the subject, especially in Southeast Asia. General papers like updates on bioarchaeological researches in Cambodia, Laos, Burma, Thailand, and Vietnam, were something that I personally have never heard about. I have known several sites only when I came across their individual history of research when I was doing my undergraduate thesis and was using these sites as general comparison to prehistoric burials found in Pondok Selabe-1 Cave, Padang Bindu, South Sumatera. It is partly embarrassing to realise that I have not been updating myself, but I think that it is about time that I will pay all the loss of information along the way.

The most intriguing issue raised within the forum discussion was when I was sitting face-to-face with today’s community of Ban Non Wat who actually play a huge role on researches, conservation, and preservation of the large Neolithic-Bronze Age site in the mainland Southeast Asia. I have tried to find more about Ban Non Wat on the internet and found very few information that could give me a broad overview or general perspective about the site and its speciality. What was more intriguing was when I realised that the problem presented to my conscious was something that I have been talking about with a dear colleague of mine nearly a year ago.

Public archaeology is the issue.

What is public archaeology? Logically I would think that public archaeology is when archaeology is about the people and for the people. Who are the people? This may include the excavators, scientists, and local community. Especially the local community. But sorry, I do not have enough time to do lit-research on this subject; it's late at night and my brain is just itchy bitchy until I get this thought out... :P

As archaeologists, when we came to one particular site bearing the will of excavating, we mean to destroy the land to gain information under the soil and use them as archaeological data. This is the perfect timing to say that the data will be used to reconstruct the past life of some community. Most of excavations use local people to help us dig and not very rare that the team would pay some amount of money for the ‘service’ that the locals have given. One experience with an excavation somewhere in Java made me wonder and said quietly, do we even treat them as hosts whose place we visited? Do we actually respect local customs and beliefs during the excavation? Have we been nice, polite, and proper to our hosts? Like it or not, the fact that we’re the one who came into their territory made us the guests. But what happened afterward was I realised that in the end is all about transaction of money and service that they give us, without even actually acknowledging; let alone involving them into the excavation that is being held within their land.

Dr. Nigel Chang and Prof. Rasmi Shoocongdej pinpointed the importance of local community’s involvement before, during, and after the research is done. Dr. Chang especially invited a group of people to the stage and introduced them as the possible living descendants of the Ban Non Wat prehistoric village. By the time they went up the stage, my heart skipped a beat. I immediately remembered the essay written by that colleague of mine on our archaeological mailing list (which by that time received less replies than he would imagined; as he imagined the topic would be very intriguing and interesting to be discussed about) and the intense conversation I had with him discussing about the same manner of treatment in an infamous paleoanthropological-archaeological site in Java. A year ago, he addressed to me of his concerns on how we treated the locals not only as helpers of our researches, but also as friends, family, and the people who actually live there and would helped to maintain, preserve, and conserve the essence of importance of the site. He was ranting about giving trainings or local educational packages to get the local people to understand the importance of the site, therefore would encourage them to participate on preserving the site.

This time, Dr. Nigel Chang spoke of the same concern, only different site to represent it. He brought the local people of Ban Non Wat in respect to let them know what the scientists have done in progress about researches being held at their residence. He also explained that these people helped a lot on the research projects and how it is important to give local people understandings of the importance of a site like Ban Non Wat. I couldn’t help but got my eyes quite watery. Compared to my country, what Dr. Chang did was indeed thoughtful and meaningful in purpose. Inviting them to the conference and letting them answer the questions from the forum were the best idea ever.

One of the conference participants asked the Ban Non Wat locals about how do they feel of being possible to be the direct descendants of the skeletal remains that they have been helping to excavate. This question sent jolts of electricity to my spine. One simple question but has deeper meaning than it was said. I looked at the local people in anticipation of the answer. They speak only Thai, and I spoke none of Thai. After the interpreter got hold of the main idea of the answer, he said, “Yes, we are indeed proud to have been participating in such important events of excavations. Those people might or might not be our ancestors, but they are the part of our local history.” Listening to this answer, I feel done. I am done for the day, I wanted to run to the toilet and cry my heart out. I was so touched. These people might not have higher education like most of us who are lucky. But that genius answer made me feel embarrassed and somewhat sad. Sad because in my honest opinion, in my own country, the appreciation of the help of the locals is way too minimum. It’s not only the matter of paying them for the day after the excavation is over. It’s not about how much we have to spend on their strength and time wasted helping us digging on a trench, while they could go somewhere to actually make a lot of money. But it’s the appreciation of having them as a part of the excavation’s team member, which is certainly more than just an acknowledgment in the preface of a final report (!!!!). In Bahasa Jawa, this is called “nge-uwongke”. Not many people know how to do this properly, not even me. I may or may not have done something (directly or indirectly) insulting to the locals, too.

Funny that I should mention the concept of basic Javanese lifestyle has become a huge concern among the bioarchaeologists in Southeast Asia (yes, I am exaggerating and overvaluing this....). It’s more than the bonding between us during the excavation, but how they are going to treat the site when we’re done with the research. Again, my colleague was correct, and it took me a year to have finally seen it with my own watery eyes.

The questions now:

1. Are we going to start to treat them as equally important as us who have the higher education?

2. How low would you go in terms of explaining complicated jargons of archaeology and other subjects to make them understand the importance of preservation and conservation of a site?

3. Are we going to start it on the next excavation available?

4. Are we going to start to value them more than the amount of money that we pay them daily?

5. Are we going to be honest to ourselves that we actually need these people to carry on and maintain the availability of data for future researches?

6. And to you, my successors, who actually get public archaeology as a subject in the class, are you ready to put your mind and stimulate your brain to be able to participate and applying your knowledge to the community? You should have known better than my arbitrary ramblings, because you obviously get the concept of public archaeology explained in the class. All you have to do is to apply it on the field.

I might not be as poetic or metaphoric as my colleague, but I tried my best to put this thought that has been bothering me during dinner party as it is. That’s it for tonight’s rambling. I’m a bit tired and I still have a workshop to do tomorrow. My brain is exhausted from today’s brain boost since 9am to 5pm. It’s a good thing though. Let’s just hope that tomorrow I won’t be mistaken tibia from femur. I have been away for quite some time.

Goodnight!

among the mist of cold wintry Central Thailand (it's fecking COLD heeeeree!!!!)

27th January 2012.

p.s.: I KNOW i recognised this guy when he was introduced as a delegation from Vietnam!! He’s the guy who said, “Although the job is difficult, we don’t receive much money while travelling in remote mountainous areas. So if we did not love the job we could not pursue it.” -- Dr Nguyen Lan Cuong - Vietnamese palaeoanthropologist. A very passionate, active, resourceful man ever! I wrote about him on my previous notes, if you even bother. *smirk....*

p.p.s.: I apologise for the insensible manner of how this 'essay' was written. The aim was to rant, to ponder, not to cause ignition nor troubles among us. ;) I'm tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiired.... ciao!

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Gong Xi Fa Cai!!!! Year of the Dragon
23.1.12 @ 4:18 PM | comment (0)

OHHH!! the time I have been waiting for!!!
In this new Year, I wish for opportunities and fortune that follows them.
As a Rat person in the Dragon Year, I believe I have good things to expect. And I have the WHOLE year to prove it.

Rat Overview

Wow. The Water Dragon is so good for you, it even makes the Horse month favorable! And, yes, this could be one of your best years. There are probably only two ways you can mess it up: Sit it out and accomplish nothing memorable, or try to outdo the outlandish Dragon. Sure, this is a great time to take risks, but come on! You know the Dragon may be lucky, but it also crashes and burns more than most signs. Know you can walk away from the table a winner -- and this year, that applies to just about every area of your life. Anything to do with communication, networking or travel could lead you to your heart's desire. Don't let this opportunity pass you by. Fly with the Dragon and make your dreams come true!

Rat Career

Yes, things might have slowed down last year in your job. The Rabbit is all about being careful -- but not so this year! This could be the time you make humongous leaps and bounds when it comes to work. Those dreams can finally be realized, and no one can stop you. The Dragon thinks big. However, big risks can sometimes bring big failures, so make sure you know what you're doing before throwing caution to the wind. Use triple Water days to negotiate a raise or handle important business. Your enterprising tendencies are favored, so express your ideas and suggest changes at work. Be an innovator. Refresh your skills. Take some training courses in your field. Then, prepare to shoot up the ladder of success!

Rat Relationships - I do not expect much from this department though, but it's always fun to read what the Dragon has for my lovelife this year! :)

Was your love life a little bland last year? Expect romance to blossom and relationships to thrive now. The Dragon is in your animal-compatibility group, and this means that your love life should get a big boost -- surely you've been waiting for it! Now is the time for passion and action. Dive in head-first and move things to the next level. Water lends lovers better communication skills this year, which means long-standing problems can be resolved -- all the better to prepare you for tougher stuff ahead. Emotions will run high, and adventure will probably be the name of the game. The Dragon favors celebrations of all kinds, including marriage. Is now the time to take that leap? Give boredom the boot, spice things up and take some risks!

p.s.: weird enough, I have proved that long-standing problems can be resolved part of the forecast!!! sheesh.. scary true!!

Rat Health

The Rabbit year probably tempted you to stay indoors and indulge some of your couch-potato tendencies. Well, get up and get moving already! It's pretty likely you'll have the energy for it since every single month is predicted to be favorable for you. Your health should be strong this year, but be careful about wearing yourself out or trying to prove something at the expense of your well-being. Make time for rest. Since life will move quickly, make plans early on to fit an exercise routine and nutritious meals in with all that traveling, gallivanting and networking. It's looking like a great year to try extreme sports such as mountain climbing or surfing. Channel your high energy into getting into peak shape. Remember, a healthy body means clarity and focus for achieving your goals!

Rat Wealth

Another reason to be jealous of you this year, Rat! Probably no other sign will fare as well as you will with money. Last year you likely put all your pawns in place, and this year you'll knock out your opponents' royalty pieces, one by one. Finally, you should have the money to live the life you've been dreaming of! You've been nurturing an orchard of ideas for several years, and now it's ready to produce big, luscious fruit. Be careful not to celebrate too lavishly, though, for if you're typical of your sign, you probably enjoy spending money as much as making it. Consider all offers before making big purchases -- you can probably afford to be picky.


taken from Chinese Rat: Yearly


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@ 6:45 AM | comment (0)
woot woot..
I will begin my first travel of 2012 immediately after the Imlek of Water Dragon year. Awesome! An awesome way to begin a year. Tomorrow, I will be heading to Thailand to attend a scientific conference, also my first conference, and am hoping to have a lotta fun there. Fun here described as work hard and play harder. LOL.

anyways, I am looking forward for this trip. I'm sure I will have lots of new experience, as this would also be my first solo trip after quite some time... Pffft... I miss that travel companion of mine. :) Will write on the road, if I get inet access.

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Neujahrsparty!!! AHOY!
30.12.11 @ 3:41 AM | comment (0)

Wooot, wooot!! Es ist schon einmal Neu Jaaaaahr!!!
Gestern hab' ich eine Freundin mir eingeladen zum Neujahrsparty und natuerlich sagte ich JA! Okay, I'm going to stop German-ing there.. :P Waaay too rusty. I dont remember how many years I haven't been using my passive German language skill. LOL, well unless when listening to Barbara Schoeneberger or Annett Louisan or Meret Becker.

Anyways, I will be leaving tonight with my dearest circle of friends, and will NO DOUBT be having a LOTTA fun! ;) I am now dealing with being the food caterer of the event (again, as usual, seemed automatically....), arranging menus and stuff to bring, til Hanna texted me and said that she couldn't come along... tsk, there goes my tandem in the kitchen! But, I still have Joseph to cook along with. ;) Awesome.

I haven't packed as usual... at all, for my personal belongings, I just packed kitchen kits. This week I have learnt that losing Facebook from my life is not a bad thing. I am de-Facebooking myself and it worked! I love it how I have gradually lost interest on finding out about the 'friends' on friend list that dont even act like friends in real life... and sorting out friends and finding out whom your true friends are have never been so fun like this.

And so, the hopes and expectations for 2012 are:
1. to redefine my passion in archaeology again, to find the real reasons why I am doing what I'm doing.
2. to redefine and sort out friends. why? because I am TIRED AS HELL with SUPERFICIAL PEOPLE. So, if you're one of them, please maintain your proximity as comfortable as possible from me and we'll all be happy.
3. redefine my future in archaeology, if not, I shall consider being just a housewife or start a business.

so, Leute!!! Schoenes NeuJahr!!!

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Desperation: Act 1
25.12.11 @ 9:29 PM | comment (0)

Reality saddened me. I am not happy anymore being different or having idealism in the level of Gie. He's totally correct. It is wise to die young. I have been thinking a lot about death nowadays even more than when I had to attend my Funerary Archaeology class. I'll save my psychologist's job to interpret my behaviour (if only I have a personal psychologist): it is merely because I thought I have nothing more to prove in life. I'm done. I definitely will end up as a spinster, therefore I stopped looking for a guy. Why? My past love life isn't as bright as my undergraduate grade transcription. I am much traumatised by guys and love life. So I stopped my efforts on looking. Got it, Psychologist??

I have pages of journal entries to say things about job life -- which I never had, as well as my huge disappointment in job market or opportunities. So, interpret that!! It is more than getting a job, you fool...!!! It's about self-accomplishment. I don't have that either. So what is left for me? Death, indeed. I have finished my childhood ambition, per se... although I am yet to be an archaeologist, but the world around me doesn't feel like giving me a chance to prove myself, so I'll make your lives easier.

Friends?? Oh God, whom I really called friends nowadays??? One 'bestfriend' who PLEADED for me to go back home to Indonesia, immediately disconnected with me after her wedding day. One other girl is too consumed in her heartbreak to even just hangout with me. The love of my life which WAS also my bestfriend (zonder quotation marks) hates me so much to even keep in contact with me, he chose to hid himself from me (he said he's hiding from the world, but I read the message between the lines: he doesn't want to see me AT All). One kind girl is clearly making an effort to stay in touch with me, but she could at anytime leave, too. Then whom do I call friend? It is obvious that my definition of friend and friendship differ from those people out there. I value highly of friendship and truth within friendship, but what they did to me proved that for them, friends are replaceable, no matter how long you have connected to each other. The bond of KAMA??? BULLFUCKINGSHIT!!! Don't you dare talk about the bond of KAMA with me, if you think friends are replaceable, if you think that the meaning of togetherness only available when you're in college. I think and value highly of KAMA and its values and nothing could trade of whatever I have experienced during my time there. But, apparently life goes on (unlike mine) and people quickly forget the essence of family, friendship, togetherness, and KAMA after they graduate. For them, KAMA possibly is a phase of life that they have to go through, but for me KAMA is life, love, and family.

Now, my dearest (imaginary) psychologist, what do I have left but death? My almamater thought that my study is unimportant and that my knowledge is inapplicable unlike any other 'trendy' studies, my 'friends' quickly forget about me when they have opportunities to go on a dig, even though they know that I am available at all time and costs to join the dig; and that I have the ability and capability to work on a team on a dig. While I memorise perfectly anyone's ability to be used on the field, my 'friends' don't even remember about me. What a waste of time, Dee... what a waste of time. Even my heartbroken friend didn't spent the effort to ask me to go to spend New Year's Even together next week, albeit my presence in front of her when she's planning the trip. Wow... was I no fun? Do I already have a plan for New Year's Eve? She doesn't even bother to ask. And yet, yesterday night I still asked her to spend New Year together. Of course, a 'no' from her is an answer.

I am always thirsty for knowledge, now I don't even k now for whom or what do I study for. Even institutions don't want me or don't give me any chances to prove that I am worthy, that I am capable. I am merely a snob abroad graduate with extreme idealism that goes against the current in everyday life; and although that made me different, that doesn't make me wanted by ANY institution. I am laughing loudly and sarcastically at people who thinks that having a foreign degree would be easier to find a job. Joke's on who, bitches? Me or those people? My biggest mistake in life is to be ambitious about science and capability, to have wanted and dreamed to be a scientist in a country full of 'hungry' people who weirdly could find a way to buy upgraded version of Blackberries. This is what my personal ambition has brought me into.

To those who are wondering: no, this is not a suicide note. I am alive, (still) ambitious, (still) jobless, and desperate, but I am alive.

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@ 6:38 AM | comment (0)
I have no snow,
no Edinburgh,
nor Christmas market here...
but anyways:





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Needlework and archaeology
23.12.11 @ 3:03 PM | comment (0)

I am now watching this documentary, Solutreans: The First Americans. This documentary’s intention is to discuss the Solutrean hypothesis which stated that there are people from Europe who actually migrated towards the Americas, judging by the similarities found amongst the stone tools which belonged to the Solutrean culture.

Wait, Dee... what the heck is Solutrean? – you say?

Well, Solutrean is an industry known to have developed in Europe during the Upper Palaeolithic which happened some times between 22,000 to 17,000 Before Present (please do not commence any countdowns now, you’ll hurt your head). According to the mighty Wikipedia, "Solutrean" is named after the type-site of Crôt du Charnier at Solutré in the Mâcon district, Saône-et-Loire, eastern France, and appeared around 21,000 BP. (ref: “Solutrean” and "Solutrean Hypothesis" at Wikipedia. Click on the link for further readings, yeah? I believe you know how to trace the references.) The site was discovered by a geologist (ahem!) in 1866 and was named as a culture by Monsieur Gabriel de Mortillet according to his system of cave chronology, just like Mousterian, Magdalenian, Gravettian and some more (now, don’t you remember your Prehistory of Europe 101??? *smiles* I’m happy I had the chance to enjoy this class); and is considered as the sub-subject on the Quaternary Prehistory (oh yeah, of course.... what else!)

Ooookaaay... what the heck is this has to do with needlework? – Would you please wait a sec, I’m making my point, yes!?

The infamous industries appeared during this period were technologies of tools, beads, bone pins, as well as prehistoric art. One of these findings is: NEEDLE. Yay! People back then made needles out of bone splinters and at first, there was no perforation in one side to hold the ‘thread’. Later on, when they discovered boring tool (obviously to make perforations of some sort), the needles were finally reached their today’s form. They used this tool to join garments, apparently to make clothings warm enough to get through with the Last Glacial Maximum (maybe that’s the trend back then, if we compared to today’s Global Warming). Having comfort enough clothings and other skills and opportunity, they managed to migrate westward to the Americas – as some scholars have argued. But, a little trivia here, that Straus did not concur with the hypothesis. He said that the timeline during the LGM and the development of Clovis culture in the Americas did not match at all. Plus, he argued that the Clovis people did not consume marine fish or mammals and that the Solutreans ate food from land-based hunting and resources of littoral and riverine, but never oceanic ones. (I’m sorry, what?) Okay, overall, he did not agree because, the Solutreans lived 5,000 years prior to the Clovis and the distance of more than 5,000 kms was definitely a trouble (ref: “The Solutrean-Clovis Connection”). [I am writing this, but I don’t get the arguments... LOL]

Needlework, Dee... Needlework....

Yes yes... I am simply amazed how a simple small tool from tens of thousands years ago is still sitting on my sewing table and am using it almost every day to sew. The thought of that at first this tool functioned as an important gadget to make clothings to get through the day (unlike your Bl***berries, which is totally out-of-contextually unimportant, depending on your needs [read: needs to follow trends]) – and today, needles and needlework are considered to be a part of haberdashery, for leisure and/or therapeutical reasons. Imagine if they hadn’t thought of joining garments (read: sew), there might not be any Solutreans or Clovis culture, considering if the hypothesis is correct.

The wonder of archaeology...

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